Old and New

Together we grow up we grow out. We protect ourselves from sadness by protecting ourselves from happiness and spend our days unlearning all the feelings that we felt TOO much
We grow up we grow out
We learn that to be grown you
destroy what destroys you
You look at how everything starts to move shifting shaking into this
beautiful mess
we
learn to be unbreakable
learn to be broke
We learned to
let ourselves become a totem pole stacked upon the monsters of our underskins so we can rise above the beasts and maybe
find the things you didn’t know you lost.
Broken locket
Lintball collection
..love.
And we grow to learn the best way to get noticed is break some shit.
And we kept growing up and growing out
Till we figured out the best way to get noticed was to be nothing at all.
The barren mother breast is no longer a pillow of rest and home
But just a test of our reverence when you walk out the door for the last time.
These arms? They grow up they grow out
Further to reach for Aryan wider to hug your sad bones one last time before Im gone and out.
I figure after were done growing are feet become too anxious to sit still and keep us going
We learn that the marble stones in our brains that shake n’ rattle when the storm comes stirring
We learn that the sound is your ugly saying hello so you choose to write your pain in poetry instead of on your lovers
Mother…Im growing in and growing old and I'm bursting to tell you we learn to let go some day. And the music will taste good in your ears again and youll still hear me laughing in the garden as we once played pretend.
And we all play pretend.
We grow in and grow out only to touch once more the moon that swallowed me whole the night I was born and spit me back out in a home.
Together…
We grow in and grow old